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Sunday, June 23rd, 2002
12:13 pm
Here I be after many, many weeks away. Those who know me, (hi my wonderful friend, Browny), know what occurred. Thank you Browny for the wonderful note you send via snail mail. It did me the world of good. I am still trying to come to terms with what happened a few weeks ago. I shall not go into it here. 'Tis boring to hear other's problems sometimes. Suffice it to say, I am slowly getting back to normal (normal for me, that is), and hope to rejoin the rest of humanity soon. The phrase 'one day at a time' really does make sense to me now.

current mood: crushed
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Tuesday, April 16th, 2002
8:41 am
I got a mail today. I mention this, 'cos Adahy and my sis in USA are usually the only ones I receive mail from. All the rest are ads....:-(
Back to mail. This completely stupid person told me I should give up writing and get myself a proper job! *laughs uncontrollably*. What? He thinks I write FanFic for a living? He called one of my fanfics 'pornographic'. *laughs* Whattttttttt????? I am assuming here he read the love scene between two characters in my EFC fanfic. Where has he been for gawd's sake? I wrote that ages ago. Besides - the scene I believe he is on about is bloody wonderful!!!!!! And tasteful. And not in the least pornographic! What I find very odd is the fact that he obviously read enough of it to have commented in the first place.....Hmm. *note to self - rewrite scene and 'hot' it up a bit...* ^_~

current mood: amused
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Monday, April 15th, 2002
8:53 am
I just went and read Adahy's diary. It's happened again methinks. If you are reading this girlfriend, you know what I mean.....Gawd there is something weird going on between us....
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8:45 am
Yesterday was not a good day. What a difference 24 hours makes. Saturday was great! I got Painter7! Wow!! *Clappyclappy haphap*. Yesterday I went to feed horses as usual. Only they were gone. I searched the meadows within and adjoining the forest, but there was no sign of them. Not that I found all the meadows. It would take weeks. Those horses have been a part of my life for almost 3 years. Ever since I began to walk again after the accident. They gave me purpose. A reason to get my butt off the bed and get my legs working again. Now they're gone. I feel gutted. I walked the forest, totally oblivious to everything, save that 'my' horses were no longer there.....I guess if they had been looked after, I would not be so concerned. But as the owner had been reported to the owners of the woods, the police and so forth, I now wonder just what was the fate of my beloved pair. Perhaps 'tis better not to wonder. Perhaps 'tis better to use common sense and think of the years I spent caring for them. Trouble is, I feel guilty. Guilt and common sense have never walked hand in hand...leastways, not in my mind....

current mood: crushed
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Saturday, April 13th, 2002
3:29 pm
attacked by murderous mole!
Okay...there I was, having a break from throwing the ball into the sea for Mitzi, sitting on an outcrop of rock (slate, actually. The cove I went to has cliffs made entirely of slate), letting my mind wander (as ya do), when suddenly, I was covered with dirt! From whence it came - I hear you not ask (but I'll tell you anyway). A mole!! When I looked up, there was this black nose and very large claws pushing out from the soil atop the cliff! After a couple of minutes, he decided a cliffs' edge was not a good place to be, and he disappeared. I sat down again. Safe...I thought. Not so. A few minutes later, he did it again!! It must be a damned large tunnel complex he is building. *laughs* All I can hope is he is a good swimmer. When the tide is in, the ocean laps around the bottom of the cliff. Adahy posted a couple of pics for me! ^_^ I can see there will be no stopping her now! *laughs* I love seeing pics of where she lives. The mountains there are phenomenal! I've got a 'thing' about mountains. You might have noticed.... ^_~

current mood: shocked
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Friday, April 12th, 2002
7:42 am
Yesterday went by in a blur. Did the usual things, but was too tired to write about it basically. *laughs* (lazy is another word that could be used ^_~). I actually was going to have a break. Just tidy up garden and plant some more, so I asked the son of a good friend of mine to take my dog walkabout. Mitzi know's him very well, and is usually happy to go with him. Not this time though. She sat on her tushy and refused to budge. He pulled until his little arms almost came out of their sockets, but still she would not budge. 'Twas a lost cause. Even I can't move her when she is in one of her stubborn moods. *laughs*. In the end, all three of us went walkabout. So much for lazy day in sun and garden. ^_^
Yipppe!! Adahy has her new camera! Not only that, she has taken a wonderful piccy of her new garden box. 'Tis like an oasis in the desert. I love it! Now if she can just point the camera at the beautiful mountains..... ^_~

current mood: curious
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Wednesday, April 10th, 2002
6:19 pm
I've just returned from the forest with some more pics. I have not had to darken/lighten them this time. Because the canopy is not yet blooming, the sun shone right through so no altering was necessary. I just wish I could encapsulate into the images all the smells, sounds and all the other stuff that was going on while I took the pictures.
Now I am being whined at by my dog. She's hungry from all the walking and chasing around, and come to think of it, so am I. So I'm off ta get food. Enjoy the pics, all those who see them. ^_^

current mood: accomplished
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7:34 am
Okay...first bit to Adahy. For gawd's sake girl!!!! Go for it!! So you have to spend that 'special' money. So what? Sometimes, you have to give some to take some. GO FOR IT!! You can't pass up such a great opportunity. Besides, if you did, I would be cross. And you know what I'm like when I'm cross huh? hehehe One teenyweeny proviso - when you've finished taking the first pics for new boss type person, take some more of your mountains. Okay? Goody. Now go get yaself an amazing camera. ^*_*^
Back to today...nah.....bit more about yesterday and boggy bit of Copse. So there I was, needing to cross a boggy bit. Now then - most boggy bits of Copses' are at the bottom of the mountains. Makes sense huh, being as rain runs downwards. ^_~ Anyway, I thought to myself, 'I can jump this'. Duh!! I jumped it alright, missing the harder ground by half a metre, and losing my shoe in the process! It took an age to retrieve it from the bog, which was sucking it as I pulled (I was also laughing so hard at the time I had a job to keep hold of it), then just as I managed to get it, my dog ran past, tail wagging, covered in boggy bits and splashing me from head to foot! So not only was my foot black and peaty, but the rest of me was as well. I just thought of the 'Creature from the Black Lagoon', sat on an outcrop and dried off. Hey ho... all makes for an interesting day. *_*
Today I am back to forest. Less effort 'cos I'm here already. ^_~

current mood: happy
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Tuesday, April 9th, 2002
8:24 pm
As I type, I am trying to upload a few pics into a folder on my site. They are of the copse and surrounding area, and if Freeserve doesn't get a move on, I will have take 100 more before this upload is finished!! A snail in reverse is faster than freeserve! And that is on a good day! Fa de dah...
3 hours later....
Yipppeee. Hope that works! I shall take some more tomorrow, but of the valley and forest. Even if it rains. ^_~

current mood: content
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Monday, April 8th, 2002
5:34 pm
Weather=beautiful!! Oh I love this. ^_^ I went across the meadows today, and down to a large copse where I sat on a large granite outcrop, which was covered with moss. Soft for botty!! It always amazes me when I sit atop of one of those. They were all thrown up during the last ice age, so I guess I was sitting on history. What a humbling thought. All around me, ran a crystal clear stream (I have often drunk from it), and I could have stayed there all day. Did actually...almost ^*_*^ I fed the horses in one of the meadows - mare and foal - then walked very slowly back to cottage. Tomorrow I shall take a drawing pad, pencils, charcoal and drink. Plus food of course, and sit there aaaaaaallllllll day. Now it will rain. ^_~

current mood: content
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Sunday, April 7th, 2002
5:28 pm
I didn't go to the woods. I went to the beach instead. Was it rough!!! Well yes actually. It was very rough which is just how my dog likes it. She has a penchant for being bowled over by 2 metre breakers. What an odd family we are... ^_~ She had her stick stolen by a poodle!! A POODLE!!! Being sweet natured, she just allowed the pooch to take it. Truth be told, my dog could have eaten him in one mouthful and still had room for more. He was very sweet really. The poodle I mean. Just a stick thief is all. I was quite proud of my dog. A couple of years ago, she would have grabbed the poodle by it's neck and drowned him. I do believe she is beginning to realize she is, in fact, a dog! ^_^

current mood: awake
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10:45 am
And yet another beautiful day. What is going on here? *laughs* clappyclappy haphap. Or something like that! ^_^ Speaking to Adahy yesterday was superterrificallystupendous! It is ages since we spoke in real time. I'm off into the forest again in a sec, but this time taking olympus along for the ride. I just might get another glimpse of the deer :-)The only blight yesterday was the bloody farmers here and about were shooting whatever breathes...pity they don't shoot themselves in the foot - or perhaps somewhere the sun don't shine.... *_* You might gather that I don't like farmers...you'd be right! Right now, I am in a fight with the closest one to me. "Heaven has no rage like love to hatred
turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned".....hehehehe

current mood: content
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Saturday, April 6th, 2002
7:49 pm
Much sun today, so out in the woods went I. And I saw a deer! It is rare to see them as they mostly hide in the undergrowth. So that is 3 wonderful things that happened today. The other two are, I spoke to my sis (love you girl), and spoke (am speaking as I type actually), to Adahy!! Saturday's rock!!!!

current mood: bouncy
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Friday, April 5th, 2002
2:25 pm
I could quite easily have stayed in bed today. I am shattered. Too many late nights - or should is say, early mornings. Then what do I find when I log into my journal? A message from someone being negative (very), about my mountain image! Bloody cheek. Not only that, he (if that is what the species was), pretended to be someone I know!! Course it could not have really been the person I know, 'cos he would never have been as nasty as that. Especially in MY journal. I have thus deleted the comment and wish the real TFM would stand up!!! *sipping tea and contemplating navel* ('cos I cannot think of anything better to do). *laughs* Oh yes....PeacefulChaos told me to tell you that he has a new G-pen but he can't do a thing with it. *laughs*. Actually, he said ******* thing with it....but I shan't write that. *evil grin*

current mood: tired
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Thursday, April 4th, 2002
5:41 pm
Forget what I said yesterday. *laughs* What a difference a day makes. I posted a really silly image at renderosity. Again, it sort of 'happened' while playing with PS. I was going to keep it for a while then probably dump it, but Adahy liked it, so here it be.http://www.renderosity.com/viewed.ez?galleryid=164757&Start=1&Sectionid=20&WhatsNew=Yes

current mood: bouncy
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8:02 am
Ho hum! Just when you think it is safe to go back into the sea....or make a comment about the lack of interest at Renderosity.......It comes back to bite you on the bum. ;-)
So - I received a comment on my image of the martian meerkat. A positive comment. I quote *positive colouring and everything goes together so smoothly*. There was also a little something about an odd line within the image, but as that is now gone (oh the magic of PSP *grin*), I shall not mention that here.... ;-) I also received 9/10 which I didn't expect. So - what - if anything has this taught me? To keep my mouth shut and have more patience perhaps? Nah....not really. I am what I am, and while I have breath, I shall still continue to 'put my foot in it', as they say. Hmm. Who the hell are 'they' anyway?

current mood: amused
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Wednesday, April 3rd, 2002
9:07 am
Adahy ROCKS!! She is truly the greatest!!! Okay..explanation. I was asking for the soundtrack of White Palace yesterday. Adahy read my post, and she has found it! I swear, there is nothing she can't find. Nothing! She would make a great PI! Hear that Adahy? *laughs* If you knew how many times I have wanted something, and she has come up with it...'tis astounding! Oh happyhappy *clapclap*
Rain...just thought I'd mention it.
I am sitting watching (from the side window), a blackbird bathing in the waterfall I built last year...or was it the year before. As though there are not enough waterfalls in this wood, I wanted one in my garden. I have a natural one, but not outside the window. So I got myself some Cornish granite, and built one. Now it is beginning to 'green' with mossy stuff, and looks part of the wilderness I call a garden. I plant only wild flowers see - hence the 'wilderness' tag. I hate 'cultivated'. Wild and scraggy rules I say...a bit like me really. *laughs* (scraggy - Cornish word for skinny ;-))

current mood: good
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Tuesday, April 2nd, 2002
5:02 pm
I'm gong to stop putting my stuff at renderosity. Seems to me, that unless it is a rendered model from Poser, with everything which is anything, hanging free or blowing in the wind,(s0 to speak) no comments are made. I mainly post my stuff there for helpful criticism. So - as I am having no comments at all - or rarely, anyway, I can only summise that either A) my images are so bad folks would be too embarrassed to tell me, or B) there is not a bare boob or bum in sight so are unworthy of comment. Course - it could just be that they are soooooooooo flaming wonderful, folks just don't know what to say, being awestruck and all.....*laughs loudly and falls off chair* Anyway - whatever.
I have been searching for a piece of music forever. It is from a movie called White Palace. So if anyone out there knows where I can download it - Yell please. Loudly. ;-)

current mood: curious
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Monday, April 1st, 2002
8:37 pm
Having a few days in the sun (it actually ceased raining for an entire week!!!), has been wonderful. When sun shines, journal stays empty. *laughs* Besides which, I have been finishing off a couple of images, one a simple painting done entirely in PSP. Not much has happened in the few days I have missed writing here. The clocks went forward 1 hour. That was exciting. (stupid actually, if you ask me...), emmets have converged on the county (emmets - vacationers...those who leave their brains in the wardrobe when they pack their clothes - leastways, the ones who visit here do!), and a very large rook has decided this cottage is a good place to visit. I mention this only because although rooks are plentiful here, they rarely visit gardens. I feel chuffed!! Other than that, it has been a week of horses, dogs and miles of walking. My feet ache! *laughs* Oh yes...according to the PM of this fair land, I am in mourning for a 101 year old woman who died a couple of days ago. Sowwy PM....but I mourn for those I care for, not for those I do not. So - just for the record - I mourn for my wonderful brother-in-law who died recently. I mourn for those who died on 9/11. I do not mourn for some woman who's only contribution to life, was wearing a tiara at breakfast. :-)
Just in case anyone out there wants to see my latest images, here be the url: http://www.renderosity.com/viewed.ez?galleryid=163398&Start=1&Sectionid=20&WhatsNew=Yes

current mood: accomplished
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Friday, March 22nd, 2002
2:14 pm
Rain...will it ever stop? According to the experts - (aside - experts = those who know everything about nothing), the gales and rain we are having is going to be the norm from here on in. Something to do with global warming. Don't you just love it? Measure the time this world has existed as 1 year. We humans have occupied the last second of the last hour of the last day of the 12th month..... Haven't we done well. What it took Mother Earth a millenia to create, we are destroying in the blink of an eye. No wonder She is slightly peeved! Here I go again. *laughs* Take no notice. I will be fine after my medication....now if only I can get the top off.... ^_~
Thought for today
You can get by on charm for about 15 minutes. After that, you better know something."
H. Jackson-Brown Jnr

current mood: cynical
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